Seismic movement happens in waves. The same can be said of us. In the first Moment of Change, I prepared to shed you like a skin that no longer fit me. But now, the earth beneath me has undulated once again. Where once there was a valley, now a mountain has formed…
Moment of Change – Part Two
I talk a great game.
About living fearlessly; about living with intent.
I pride myself on facing my fears; not letting those fears hold me back.
I am lying to myself.
Your caress has awakened more than just my body.
Your smile has shined light into darkened corners.
As I feel my vulnerability rise up to meet your kiss
So too the fear rises up to meet you.
Still reddened where the wounds of last November flayed me open,
My desperate instinct was to protect my heart from another blood-letting.
And my fear nearly drove me away.
But I am not the same woman I was before.
And I am not beholden to make the same frightened choices I have made in my past.
I can own my feelings.
Voice my emotions.
Face the monster in the darkness.
Expose my vulnerability to the light.
Regardless of what you say or do after you see it.
In the end, what you do with that knowledge is your decision.
What happens next is in the future, beyond our reach.
But right now,
There is another moment whose time has come…
The moment I let you in.