You affect me.
Make no mistake about it. You cause a chemical reaction in my body that is virtually impossible to ignore.
When you touch me, my skin sparkles with electricity. Your palm against my back, fingers tracing me softly, wrecks me in a way that no one else can.
To hold back those urges takes an iron grip of determination I was not sure I had within me. Not until that resolve was tested tonight.
Your hand against my leg, fingers tracing a distracting pattern against the inside of my knee made it hard to track the plot of a movie I’ve seen a hundred times. Your fingers laced through mine warmed me like liquid honey.
I knew the kiss was coming. But still wasn’t prepared. Your lips brushing mine in that familiar, hungry pattern and my resolve was rocked to the foundation. I breathed in as I kissed you back, the sensual concert of touch, taste and scent turning my core to molten desire that was almost more than I could bear.
You brought tears to my eyes. A sudden rush of emotion so strong that my eyes leaked from the pure awesome power of it.
Did you feel it? Did you feel that wave of emotion?
Or did you just feel me pull away? Did you sense my uncertainty, my restraint as I forced my lips to cease their movements and retreat from the moist invitation of yours?
You noticed something. Something about that moment made you pause and utter two words:
I’m fine. I’m just fine.
I’m just swimming in tidal wave of physical desire and emotional vulnerability. I’m just battling with myself to make the healthy choice, the one I know is right for me in this moment.
Yes I have the strength to resist you. But not without paying a hefty price.
I sent you home tonight. I sent you home without that devilish moment of delight when I lap up essence from your cock. I returned you to your own bed instead of welcoming you into mine.
I held my ground. In spite of absurd, painful temptation.
I don’t know if you could see, feel or sense it.
So I’m here to tell you that – without a doubt – you continue to entice me.
You affect me still.